i watched alien stage and i'm a broken thing now. i'm not sure why i didn't watched it before considering that i know about it since last year, i think? the soundtrack is fire tho, and hyuna is my fav so far-- she's so ˵- ⩊ -˵ and i'm just a lesbian.

in my mind, and for my mental health, they're really just actors and they're all alive and happy and *shoot* i get really sad everytime i remember what they´re going and went through, even when i know that they're in fact not real... born to be nonchalant forced to be an empath.

feww honestly so many things happened in the span of two or three weeks-- still don't know how to process it... i've always been terrified of lose someone of my family and it was so close to becoming real. chronic diseases really appear out of nothing. at least i have the reassurance that she's as good as she can right now. that really calms me.

i can say i deeply despise changes, and not even in a "i didn't had my morning coffee, i'm so grumpy now" way (that i actually get grumpy), but more in a "now i'm so sad and sensitive and i'm gonna cry for everything" way. i never learned how to regulate my emotions that well, i'm guilty. i wish things stayed one way forever.